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Max

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I lived with my mother and her various boyfriends until I was 11. Up to that point, I had been told I had siblings, and I’d also met them, but while my oldest and most frequently seen brother, Max, was the one I knew the most, he was 13 years older than me. We had a lot in common, and I believe a huge chunk of my interests were influenced entirely by him. He’s the one to introduce me to World of Warcraft. When I was 8, I cut my hair in an attempt to look what I thought was … Continue reading Max

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23. I Love To Singa

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I love to sing! I’ve never had any help with it though, and I’m in need of work to be passable… but I love it, and I don’t care; I do it in the shower. In fact, I’m singing right now. Off and on, though, because I can’t think and speak/sing at same time or else my English goes out the window. Which I think is hilarious, since I consider myself relatively good at communicating through written word. Poems and stories are my jam! I used to perform concerts with toy pianos like Tom did on the show Tom and … Continue reading 23. I Love To Singa

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22. Opening Up To People

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As long as I can remember, I’ve had issues opening up to people. With my first crush, I told my friend and she betrayed that trust by telling him. It took me a long time and only until college before I felt willing enough to even start talking about boys to friends. When I was little, opinions and arguments were considered ‘disobedience’, and I was often beaten for trying to advocate for myself or, in some cases, tell my mom’s boyfriend why I didn’t think he should be around. Even telling facts was off-limits for that segment. In 6th and … Continue reading 22. Opening Up To People

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21. Max

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I felt betrayed. Not because this was the single most deepest conversation I’d ever had with him; but because of all of the years I spent living in denial that I could ever win his approval. – My diary entry from September 7th, 2015 (Beginning of my second year at Uni). My brother Max was the coolest guy I knew growing up. He had neat gadgets and video games, and awesome clothes. I wanted to be like him, and I remember I always tried to impress him with my knowledge of geeky things like video games and superheros and stuff. … Continue reading 21. Max

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17. Solitude

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I’m a walking paradox. I frequently long for social interaction, but when I receive it, I want solitude. It’s like my mind decides it’s hungry, and then halfway through eating a steak, I realize I want a salad. I’ve never really wanted a salad, but that’s the point. I don’t want to always want to be alone. I enjoy talking to people, sharing thoughts on their viewpoints of things. Always wanting solitude is a double-edged sword. I’m my most productive and creative when I’m alone. There’re no interruptions to distract me, I don’t have anyone breathing down my back, and I can … Continue reading 17. Solitude