This is just a little bit of a reflection on my previous um, reflections. I just want to let you know what my thoughts are on this blog so far.
I’m really happy I started writing this. A lot of this has never been spoken, or written prior to this blog. Well, none of it has been written, but very little of this has been spoken.
Some of these topics, like #11 (Surf-shop And Cauldron) and #5 (My Life Injuries (Physical)) are very close to me. I’ve spoken of #11 to therapists, to friends, but they’ve all received the watered version of it. It’s an event in my life that I can’t explain in spoken word. There’s a nuance in writing that brought up memories from that event. I relived it, as I wrote it. I wasn’t drowning in it, by any means. I’m fine, and I hold no reservations about discussing it. It was merely an interesting experience to write, because there’s still so much I couldn’t seem to write. Like I said, there are nuances, but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to 100% share that event with people. That post, however, was as close as I can accurately relay that event and doing so was, surprisingly, a good experience.
Writing these blog posts feels therapeutic. I look forward to putting my thoughts in here, and it’s so nice to not have to worry that certain people will read these. My family could read them, I’m not trying to hide this adventure of mine from them, but I’m also not going to direct them to it. I have many posts that I want to write about my family. Good, and bad. They would know easily who I talk about with things in my life, despite the name changes. But taking this step to letting out years of pain, and misery and humor and nostalgia, and excitement is monumental.
We’re far from done with talking about the gritty stuff, my friends. I know I’m writing a lot about negative experiences, and I’m trying to keep some posts light, but you were warned; I’m not holding back. I’m an optimistic individual, with a playful nature. There’s so much light in my personality. But I won’t lie by saying there’s no melancholy or that my thoughts aren’t tinged with a bittersweet flavor. I’m a deep thinker, constantly chewing on how things affect my thoughts, my world, my outlook.
So far, I’m having fun, even if what I talk about may be heavy. That’s what I’m trying to say. So, buckle up! The ride just started.
Hannah-radical 